HIM.

OMG I SO HATE HIM.
REALLY HATE HIM.
HATE HIM SO MUCH.

HE TOTALLY DOESNT REALIZE THAT I'M FREAKING OUT AND HE JUST TAKES HIS TIME TO SLOWLY.. S-L-O-W-L-Y REPLY HIS MESSAGES AND WHEN I SAY "SEE YOU TOMORROW" HE JUST DOESNT REPLY!!!

SO WHAT'S THE POINT IN ASKING ME OUT ON A DATE WHEN YOU'RE TOTALLY NOT INTERESTED IN ME?!!

I'VE ASKED HIM BEFORE WHY HE ACTUALLY ASKED ME OUT ON A DATE.

"WAS IT ON IMPULSE?"

"NO"

"WAS IT BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO GET MY MIND OFF ANOTHER GUY WHO IS CHASING ME?"

"NO" (LAUGHS)

SO LIKE H-E-L-L-O!? JUST TELL ME!!!

WHY THE HELL DID I BOTHER WITH NEW SHOES AND A NEW BLOUSE JUST FOR THE SAKE OF GOING OUT ON 1, O-N-E DATE WITH YOU WHEN I KNOW THAT YOU ALREADY HAVE SOMEONE THAT YOU ARE 'SORT-OF' SEEING?

WHY THE HELL AM I TRYING TO STARVE MYSELF SO AS TO LOOK GOOD IN THE CLOTHES I BOUGHT TO WEAR FOR YOU?!

OMG GUYS ARE SO SO SO CLUELESS AND USELESS AND WORTHLESS!!!

IF YOU DIDNT EVEN PLAN ON TREATING ME AS A REAL GIRL THAT YOU WANT TO TRY TO MAKE A RELATIONSHIP WORK WITH, YOU SHOULDNT HAVE EVEN GOTTEN MY HOPES UP.

WHAT THE HELL.

I HATE YOU.

I LIKE YOU.

OH DAMN.

Celebration Dinner

Im back from dinner at BaliThai with my family.
It's supposed to be my good-results-celebration dinner thing for me getting a GPA of 4.0 for my last semester in Ngee Ann Polytechnic.
So since it's MY celebration dinner, I'm supposed to be able to invite my own friends and BOYFRIEND to this dinner thing, right?
But obviously since my parents are against me having a Malay boyfriend, they made this whole celebration thing a FAMILY event.
Which means that I can't invite my boyfriend to celebrate with me.
What's worse is that my parents switched the dining venue from one halal diner to another halal diner.
Is this totally getting at me or what.
It's going to be 2 years since me and my boyfriend got together.
My parents should already have been used to the idea of him as my boyfriend and should be getting to know him more.
But what do my parents do?
They pretend that he does'nt exist, and on the occasion of him coming into contact with my parents, they pretend that he is just my friend.
COME ON.
By tricking yourselves into believing that I will come to my senses and dump my Malay boyfriend for a better Chinese boyfriend with better future prospects in the university, you just do not want your daughter to be happy at all.
What if I get married to my Malay boyfriend?
Are you going to be making my life hell with all the racial and cultural differences?
Can't we just love each other for whom we each are and treat each other equally without all the differences; just as we are fellow humans?
Is being Chinese necessarily better than being a Malay and vice versa?
Should'nt the most important point be that of how my boyfriend is treating me and not whether he is of the same race as ours?
So what if I really break up with my Malay boyfriend in the end and get a Chinese boyfriend who treats me worse than what my Malay boyfriend used to treat me?
Will you still force me to marry him because this Chinese guy has more money, has more influence in the society and most importantly, is CHINESE?
I know that my Malay boyfriend has many flaws. But we are still young; we still have time to mature and form our individual identities in the society.
So won't you just give me, him, and all of us a chance to prove ourselves by trying to accept this relationship for just what it is and not try to pretend that it does not exist?
Please?

幸せ

私は今幸せですよ。

その人がもう私の彼氏になりました。今日は私たちが付き合った六ヶ月、１７日ですよ。
もうすぐクリスマスが来るよね。楽しんで待っています！
私は一生懸命きれい人になるよ。

私の成績では、あまりよくないです。日本から帰国した後、すぐ試験があったから。。
試験を準備する時間があまりなかった！いや！
まあ。今は休みですから、今リラックスしかないですね！
学期がもう一度始まったら、がんばります！

旦那さん大好きだよ。

omggg i cant believe this.. LALA!!! YOU CREATED A JIAJIA-THEMED PAGE!!!
sugoi. LOL. umm.
well. what do i have to say about it ne.
its like.. im really very busy with school and my love life..
I HAVENT BEEN WATCHING ARASHI STUFFS FOR ABOUT 1 MONTH ALREADY!!! (of my own accord.. whenever i meet ryuryu though, she spams me with arashi stuff, so you cant blame me. xD)

i still love tego yo! but for some reason, im kinda tired of him for the time being. maybe its true. we really NEED a regular variety show for NEWS!!!

we should petition to johnny-san.. like what we've been planning since last year lol.

jiajia still loves JE, but its just that she doesnt have much time ne...
gomen ne!!!

minna daisuki!!!
-jiajia-

昨日はすごく楽しかったんです。ちょっと、デートみたいな感じね。
彼のこと、好き？そうね。彼の匂いはなんか、分かんない。。幸せの香り？
まあ。
すごく幸せな感じを感じていたけど、
今は恋いの時間じゃない。

jiajia is sick.

i think ive had it since saturday. is that the... SWINE? OMGGG. *freaks out*
no lah. xD its just a normal flu ne. -> due to stress levels and etc and etc and therefore, my immune system is compromised and SLE? no way. SLE = systemic lupus erythromatous, btw.

jiajia's love life?

well.
i dont know.

jiajia's japanese-ish life?

omggg i think ive been really out of the JE life for very very long.. i dont understand this.. but i dont really feel that im looking forward to tego's new drama! OH NO!!! lala!!! i know you're reading this! dont bash me! im still in tegoism, though. xD

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分からない。本当に。
好きな人とか恋いをするとか、本当に分からない。
彼は、私のこと、どう思うのか？
知りたいけど、知ったら、どうするの？

YOSH!

Due to so many ppl telling me to post again, here i am again!

Well, jiajia is really kinda stressed out now.. There are like tons of projects and group assignments and individual assignments to do now.. and in another 2 weeks, COMMON TEST!!!

Therefore, jiajia is now suffering from a migraine that has lasted for about 3 days already.

An update on my Japanese-ish life! ...

Im studying Japanese in school now, in Intermediate 201. I managed to jump 2 levels to get here. REASON? you may ask.. Well, let me tell you.. THERE'S AN IMMERSION TRIP TO OSAKA FOR THE STUDENTS IN THIS COURSE!!! yepp.

I've submitted my application form, together with a Japanese and English essay on 'Why I should be chosen [to go for this trip]'. After submitting the essays, i checked the japanese one with as japanese teacher. DAMN. Most of my grammar is wrong and out of lplace.. but really DO want to go to osaka!!!

Nowadays, im more into ARASHI than NEWS cos NEWS really has too little things/media for me to go high over, so im satisfying myself with ARASHI. AIBA!!! lol. im still in love with TEGOSHI though. xDDD

In school, i have quite a few jap-ish friends who like JE too. AND GUESS WHAT?!?!? Ive managed to convert a JAPANESE TEACHER in my school to JE FANGIRLING!!! *kyaaaas* I really love that japanese teacher of mine a lot lol. She is LOVE. seriously. haha.

Tegoism.. yea, i miss it alot.. especially when it was just formed.. allof us angels and tegoists were so enthusiastic over it! I remember going on to tegoism at least 5 times a day to chat there with all the tegoists.. It will never go back to that way it was, deshou? *sigh*

*

Jiajia in nursing...

jiajia doesnt want to go back to the hospital. life in school is so good. well. life cant be perfect, ne. xDDD

love to all my friends,
-jiajia-


PS. WE'RE MAKING OKONOMIYAKI TONIGHT AT THE JAPANESE TSUBASA CLUB!!! =D

So the other day a story came out that Tego was dating Becky. It had been reported their relationship started when Tego began flirting with her. He asked her out to eat several times while working on ItteQ and 24HR TV, she liked him too, they email each other every day blah blah blah.

Becky and her agency denied the allegations and she stated in her blog: "No, not true. No way. There's no way. (laugh) 10,000% no. ...How could they write that!?"

The lady doth protest too much, you say? Well, an insider claims the story really was wrong. "No, Tegoshi was the one going after Becky. He confessed to her. But what he got back was the most awful and unbearable rejection."
Yikes, did she laugh?

Word has it Tego's been damaged mentally. "Saying Becky's name in front of Tego would cause a serious problem; he'd turn pale and break out into a sweat. One time someone on staff said, 'bekki ni kakarete imasu' (it's written somewhere else) and Tegoshi got very nervous and jumpy. He really couldn't handle her."

Becky screwed Tego up so bad, not only is he scared of her but he has now developed gynophobia - a fear of women. When he's alone with a girl he breaks out in hives.

I shit you not, that's what it says. Seriously? Gynophobia? LOL

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well.. i dont really believe it, but at least its something to do with tegoshi-sama lol. XD

チョコレートはやっとあげました。
すげえ緊張しました、けど、今は大丈夫と思います。
えええ。
ちょっと。どうして、私の心は今まで迷っていたかしら？
これって、もしかして、青春の味？
バレンタインね。
分かんないけど、この気持ち私は嫌！

ー

もうすぐ試験が来るね。。
頑張れ、祐子！！！

VALENTINE'S DAY IS COMING!!!

for those of you who dont know when valentine's day is, you must have probably been living under a rock for like the past 300 years or so lol.

valentine's day is on the 14th of february!!!

YOSH.

hmm.. should i make chocolate or just buy them myself?

this year is another year of giri-choco ne. honmei-choco winners are not here yet.. LOL.

oh well.. exams are coming soon, so i think i wont have the time to spend making my giri-choco. so i'll just probably buy them hahaha.. OKANE GA NAI!

there are like tons of stuffs to do now.. argh i wish that CNY would last forever haha..

maa.. sho ga nai deshou..

i havent been going onto tegoism that much either.. =(

well. im going to get back to my work now..

mata ne!

KONNICHIWA!

Chinese New Year (CNY) is coming soon, ne. My home has been decorated with tons and tons of CHI-NA red and gold stuffs. and the fish and the scrolls. lol.

for the goodies part, my mom made her infamous peanut cookies again. ive tried not to steal them as much as possible, but they're calling out to me, so what can i do?! and theres.. chocolate almonds. i steal that shamelessly cos its really nice. yep. and peanuts and cashew nuts.. i dont eat nuts; im not a chipmunk. and the usual egg rolls are there.. i dont steal them; my brother does. but somehow, i get the blame when the container is empty lol. XD

my parents went to chinatown yesterday as part of their 'tradition'. and they bought tons of mochi-ish cakes. my mom told me that those cakes were filled with some traditional japanese bean paste. and needless to say, they've been scammed. (although i didnt say it to them lol) oh yatta! i see stale bread rolls. i just love stale bread rolls cos they're so hard and chewy.

ytd, i went to my cca, which was the japanese tsubasa club. and.. we cooked okonomiyaki!!! umm.. or rather.. I cooked okonomiyaki. i love cooking you see.. but the point is.. (according to fadzhan) the appearance of my cooked food is unappealing, but weirdly enough, it tastes good. XD oh lol.. the jtc ppl havent seen the bentous i make to sch. haha. well.. the okonomiyaki we cooked yesterday was kinda.. uncooked. but it tasted good with the tonkatsu sauce and the mayonnaise, so yep. it worked out well! =D but.. im still kinda worried about the others who ate the okonomiyaki.. did they get indigesstion or diarrhoea? or smth.. lol.

hmm.. what have i been busy with these few days ne..

PROJECTS, PROJECTS, PROJECTS!!!

yep, like what ive said above, ive only been bakari doing projects. FON project.. SAWI project.. Pharm project.. and the major scary one that is coming up.. the NR project. yea. *shudders*

about NR.. there was this assignment that i was supposed to be doing, or should have done, before i left for my attachment. which was like eons ago. and.. i didnt do it. lol. its like 15% of NR. but i really didnt care. so this term, when we came back to sch, our NR teacher flashed this page on the screen showing everyone's grades. oh lol, lol, lol. all the ppl who didnt pass up that assignment failed. except me. XD (sugoi, right?) haha.. so cos there were so many ppl who failed cos they didnt pass up their assignment, our module leader decided to give us a chance to do our assignment and pass it up by friday (yesterday) to try to pass the module. but only with half of the marks achieved. so chel and i (ppl who didnt do the assignment but still managed to pass the module) decided not to do the assignment although we were given a 2nd chance. there were so many projects to do!! but on thursday night, i chickened out.. and stayed up into the night doing the NR assignment. GOMEN NE, CHEL! kuri-chan was online with me cos we both had assignments to do. so i managed to finish the assignment and printed it in sch, and dumped it into jayanthi's pigeon hole ytd. *washes hands off NR*

soshite..

after netball ytd, i went to pharmacology lecture. outside the lecture hall, while we were waiting to go in, i got hold of a subarashii marvellous news.. IM IN THE DIRECTOR'S LIST!!! YATTA YATTA YATTA!!! and i went up to the office to collect my letter of commendation. =D

this morning, i woke up with my whole body aching. omt netball is really having its toll on me. my lower back is aching like mad. and my arms and my legs are like really really sore. omt thank god netball is going to end soon. and i just noticed. on the back of my right hand, there is a long bloody scratch. and i traced my actions back to yesterday to find out what had caused it. NETBALL. someone was snatching the ball from me and... SHIIIN! i got a scratch. but lol. i didnt notice it until this morning. <- kinda slow, eh? XD

well. i gtg have my lunch now before my mom decides to remind me to have it. and then.. i'll have to go to work too.

soredewa..
minna, mata ne! =D

-jiajia-

真冬の空の下　その瞳に僕が映る
ラストのバスが今　走り去って行く
見えない系に導かれて
二人は出会うための道を
一歩ずつ　たどり続けて来たんだね

寒空に　一瞬輝いた　流星がくれたのは
はにかんだ　最高の笑顔と
眩く二人を包む 「永遠色の恋」

キラキラ舞い降りる　君との初めての雪
一緒に見とれたフリして　君を見つめてた

今日からは同じこの道を　喜びも悲しみも
みな一つずつ 二人で受け止めて行こう

君だけは　絶対離さない　いつまでも　どこまでも
約束さ　永遠に消えない季節を　二人で訪ねよう
寒空に　一瞬輝いた　流星がくれたのは
はにかんだ　最高の笑顔とこのまま眠ることない　
「永遠色の恋」

薄れて行く空から　明日が今日に生まれ変わる
肩寄せ合い　足並み揃え　歩いて行こう

君だけは　絶対離さない　いつまでも　どこまでも
約束さ　永遠に消えない季節を　二人で訪ねよう
寒空に　一瞬輝いた　流星がくれたのは
はにかんだ　最高の笑顔と心に刻まれて行く　
「永遠色の恋」

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この曲はＮＥＷＳからのアルバムＣＯＬＯＲの永遠色の恋だ。いい曲でしょ。まあ。。
この歌の歌詞私は大好きで、皆聞いての時にも、私と同じ気分を聞きなさい。
本当にいい曲ですよ。

お母さんは、私が嫌いです。
本気ですよ。
どうして。。

泣いたのは、僕だった
弱さを見せないことが
そう強い訳じゃないって君が言っていたからだよ
信じてた。

oh i saw a japanese flag today.. on the back of a nurse's dress. =S

and it just so happened to be a nurse from NP..

dakara, i quickly ran towards her in the station just as she was going out from between the barriers..

and told her of the devastating news.

and chel and i shoved her in the toilet, thinking that it must have been the worst thing to ever happen to anyone..

and it happened to dele-dele before...

=S

そして、雑誌のコーナーへ行きました。

その後で、私のリングを無くした。

手越様、本当にごめんなさい。

＊

泣いたのは、僕だった。

kyou wa watashi no jinsei ga hajimatta kara, ichiban saiyaku no hi da.
(since the day my life started, this has been the worst day ever.)

^ and i dont care about the tenses anymore. i think the tenses are wrong. oh well.

so.

i left home for choa chu kang (cck) at 12nn to meet atikah.

We ate lunch (oh the horrible stall owner) at cck's muslim food court.. Shiao Ron Bao wa oishii desu yo! <- Xiao Long Bao is delicious yo~

we took bus 190 to orchard. and on the bus, we watched itteQ - plop in the pond! (OMT tegoshi-sama wa cho cho cho kakkoi! herumetto ojisan's flip in the pond!!! XDDD) and.. we got off outside tangs.

Soshite.. Oruchado de karaoke wo shimasu. NIHONGO no karaoke da!
(And.. Karaoke at Orchard. Japanese karaoke.)

Oruchado emuarutei kara, watashi-tachi wa forumu no mukou he arukimashita.
(We walked to Forum from Orchard MRT.)

Ano tokoro wa chotto tooi desu kedo, tomodachi to isshou nara, nanimo muzukashikunai desu ne.
(Although that place is kinda far, but when im with my friend, nothing is too difficult for me.)

SHIKASHI.
(However.)

The whole karaoke place was fully booked!

NANDE NANDE DAME?!?
(Why why cannot?!?)

Dakara, watashi wa atikah to betsu no karaoke basho wo sagashiteta.
(Therefore, Atikah and i searched for a different karaoke place.)

Demo, nihongo no karaoke ga doko mo arimasen deshita.
(But, there wasnt any other japanese karaoke to be found.)

Zannen deshou ne?
(Isnt it a pity?)

Shikatta ga nakatta de, watashi-tachi wa faru isuto he ikimashita.
(Since it couldnt be helped, we went to Far East.)

SOSHITE!
(AND!)

Watashi wa.. YUKATA wo KAIMASHITA!!!
(I.. bought a yukata!!! Or not really lol.. but i just gave the deposit for it haha..)

Sorede, watashi-tachi wa Takashimaya he ikimashita.
(And then, we went to Takashimaya.)

Watashi wa, Takashimaya no Kinokuniya de, hitotsu no hon wo sagashite imashita.
(At Takashimaya's Kinokuniya, i looked for one book.)

Sono hon wa.. Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac.
(That book was.. Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac.. <- from Tegoshi-sama's new eiga(nakushita kioku)!!! XD)

But it was out of stock. >.<

OH WAIT. my mom wants to sleep.. so i'll just post up to here 1st and then, i'll post up the rest tmr. XD hahahaha.

JA.

yay 26 is finally on 4-hourly para!

CHEERS!

yosh. im back from my aftnn shift today. kinda tired.. and my feet are aching. lol.

im going to do my case study on my dear old (68 years old) patient in bed 22, ward 41. so i'll grab all the history and other stuff from his case notes tmr...

argh i have this really really irritating patient in my cubicle. he is seriously non-compliant.. and ARGH. i want to whack him on the head if i can manage it. like.. oops! sorry! XD

this patient SMOKED on the balcony outside the cubicle!!!! and my poor patients!!!! that *******... grrrrrrrrr....

and no matter how much i told him to stop, he still smoked and he told me off for telling to stop smoking.

WHERE'S THE DAMNED LOGIC IN THAT?!?

oh grrrah. no point raising my BP over this kinda person. -.-

today is my dad's bdae.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!! XD

so i think i will try to introduce him to my beloved tegoshi. or not. haha.

birthday messages are still coming in.. *feels so loved*

ooooh ya. gotta do my jap homework. and my NR. although i think my NR will fail lol. XD but i dont care...

IDC. rofl.

watashi wa nan no tame ni konna ni ganbarun no? kangoshi yori.. isha no hou ga motto ii to omoimasu.. dakara.. o-isha-san ni naritain desu.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!! XDDD

doushiyo doushiyo doushiyo..

i may be debarred from CMBio!!!

nande nande?!?

I only skipped once!!!!!!!!!!!!!

D.O.U.S.H.I.Y.O...........................

minna, konnichiwa!
lol i went to the battlebox at fort canning with my dad the other day.. and these are the pictures we took there. (although there were many signs saying 'no photography' there rofl)

soredewa. mata ne! =D